Baby Steps: Part Three
Baby step number one was self-care. Baby step number two was doing a few chores. Baby step number three, the step I took yesterday, was to put on makeup after practicing self-care, and also doing chores. I did baby step number three yesterday, and the results were fantastic.
I used to put makeup on everyday not because I cared about what others thought of my naked face, but because wearing makeup just generally made me feel more put together. How it makes me look is just a nice plus. I enjoy makeup. I enjoy shopping for it, buying it, and putting it on, except when I'm in a depressive episode, like the one I've been battling for the past few months.
When I'm struggling with depression, I hardly have the energy or motivation to wash my face let alone put on makeup. But really, those are the time when I need to do it the most. Putting on makeup would boost my self-esteem during a time when I have none, and would make me feel more put together when I feel like I'm falling apart.
Yesterday was the first time in a long time that I put makeup on, and the results were great. I enjoyed putting it on, picking out colors, and after the application process was complete, I felt completely different.
Not only did I feel more put together, I felt more confident, my self esteem was higher than it had been in awhile, and I looked nice, which I thought was impossible for the past three months or so.
So, I've taken three baby steps in the past week, and am going to stop there. I am going to work on taking those steps together every day before I add more. So, I'll be practicing self-care, doing chores, and putting on makeup everyday (or I'm really going to try to) for probably the next week or so before I add another baby step to my daily routine.
It already seems daunting, doing them all together. I already don't want to. I already want to stay in bed tomorrow and do nothing but curl up in my covers and do my deep breathing.
But I'm going to try. I want to feel better, so I am going to try. Baby steps. Baby step toward feeling better.
