I Am Hopeful

With all the changes that will be taking place in my life this month, there is plenty of room for me to doubt myself and my abilities. But instead of doing that, I have decided to grab and hold onto hope.

Hope is a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen, and for me, I have hope for a lot of things.

I hope that my new apartment is nice and comfortable.

I hope that Josephine adjusts well to us living on our own.

I hope that I am able to keep up financially comfortable.

I hope that we gain all the furnishings we need for our new apartment.

I hope to make good, fruitful friendships.

I hope to secure a loving, long-term relationship.

I hope to succeed in my schooling.

I hope to have enough time to study.

I hope that Josie adjusts well to going to daycare.

I hope that the world finds peace.

I hope to find peace.

I hope to gain and retain mental stability.

I hope to stop bad habits and start good, new ones.

I hope to take control over my life.

I hope to no longer let others manipulate me.

I hope that my book gets published sooner than later.

I hope that I don't encounter writer's block.

And many more.

It's easier to doubt myself than to find hope, but I will practice being hopeful every day.

One thing I'm worried about is that instead of being hopeful, I will raise my expectations and when those expectations aren't met, I will be disappointed.

I don't handle disappointment very well. To me, disappointment feels like the world is ending, or like I have failed.

I am going to allow myself to have hope and healthy, realistic expectations for the things I hope for, and should the things I hope for not happen, I will take them in stride and reason that everything happens for a purpose; a reason.

If I have to withdraw from my classes, if I end up back at my mom's, if I remain alone and not in a romantic relationship, I have to be okay with that on some level. But I am going to try very hard not to let those things happen, and I am going to have hope.

I think an unrealistic level of hope can be unhealthy, and that is why I am going to try and maintain a healthy, realistic level of hope in all things. I will journal my hopes and desires and read over them to make sure they aren't unrealistic. I will not let myself be broken by failed hopes and dreams, and will keep my level of disappointment at a minimum.

I have hope for many things. I have hope for many of the changes that will soon be occurring in my world. I will not let others discourage this hope. If the situation involves someone else, like a potential partner, and the situation doesn't go as I'd hoped, I will not let that break me. I will take it in stride, take a deep breath, and move on.

I am hopeful for mine and my daughter's life, and not even the slightest amount of discouragement and doubt from others is going to change that.

#hope